Sentiments

It's amazing how a person can keep hanging on to the past. While everyone thinks that the person is out of the dark hole and moving on, yet, that person is still there, more hurt than ever.



During the past month I had a taste of these:


1. Getting over someone by going back to him



Driving in the car with her on the right.......
-Me: "Are you serious? You're going back to him?"
-She : "Don't you feel guilty to not get back with a person you know so well, to a person you got used to? I couldn't even think of being with anyone else. I think 1.5 years away is a good break and now it's time we get back together".

2. Getting over someone by running away
At the door, on the way out, picking up a bag I kept for him...........
-He: "I have to get out of this country, by hook or by crook, I have to before the end of the year."
-Me: "This is when she comes back from abroad, right?"
Long pause and a sad face........ -"right"




3. Not being able to get over someone
Going up the escalator at the mall........
-She: "I still can't get over him....... I think i don't want to."
-Me: "Time is the only healer, give it some time"

4. Afraid of going through the pain, again, of getting over someone
Sipping tea at her house........
-She: "If this doesn't work out then this is it! I don't know what I will do, I don't know how I can go on."

5. Getting over someone by finding someone else

Conversing over lunch..........

-She: "Well actually, there's someone new!And it might go faster than you guys expect"
-Me: "What? Really? How do you know that this time it's right?"-She: "Coz I've never felt like this about anyone before. I think this guy is 'The One' "
-Me: "Good for you for moving on, good for you"

Football my dream, football my life !

It's interesting how guys are just big boys.

Boys at 5 years of age --> play football
Girls at 5 years of age --> play with Barbies



Boys at 15 years of age --> play football
Girls at 15 years of age --> play with makeup and occasional prank calling

Boys at 25 years of age --> play football
Girls at 25 years of age --> play Pictionary, Sudoku, cards or bowling

Guys at the office love to play footbal. No matter how different the guys are, football brings them together!



I don't get it

I'm not mean, I'm practical

You know what kills me in this society? The fact that you HAVE to do stuff;

Examle #1 I hate arou7 a3azzi (pay respects to the dead). I am a sentimental person although I seem mtamsi7a but I really don't find death surprising nor dramatic.

-Faheema*: "hey, keefek? Did you hear inno khal Muna passed away?"

-Me:"ah jad? Alla yir7amo"

-Faheema: "Aren't going to go pay respects"?

-Me thinking 'I hate a3azzi and wear black, I hate it I hate it. Muna? Tab I rarely see her' ....."Sure, what time?"

Biddi afham, why do I have to a3azzi every single person on earth? If you come to think of it, an average Jordanian has consoled a larger number of people than the number of people he went out with. I honestly have attended funerals more than weddings. When you're having fun you don't invite me but when you're in pain I must be there? La2 sorry!

I know it's a sign of respect, I know these people are happy to see me and I know that it's a sign of sympathy and support. I know all of that I just hate doing it! Please no one out there tell me the benefits and advantages of consolation because I heard it all.

To me going to a place where people are mourning a death is not exactly my idea of support. The problem is that people keep a record; "laish arou7 a3azzi, ma aja 3azzani b abouy" !!! ehhhh aish? Aish fee? Aren't you supposed to be in trauma and mourning?

The thing about deaths is that it comes sudden, whatever you have those 3 days you should clear out your schedule and fit it in. Not practical.

Example #2

-Dina*: "I'm heading towards the airport Sunday morning at 8:30"

-Me : "Oh cool so I'll see you Saturday night".

-Dina: "Or you can pass by Sunday at 8:00"

-Me: !! "OrI can pass by Saturday night! :) "

-Dina: "Sure whenever is suitable for you".

-Me: "Dina if I was in your situation, would you wake up to come see me at 8:00 AM?"

-Dina: "Of course I would"

-Me: "Why??!! Don't you think it's more practical to see me the night before? I mean if you got the 2 options wouldn't it just be easier on all humanity if you come the night before?"

-Dina: "Hmm maybe but I'd still wake up and come see you. I don't mind it I'm a morning person"

-Me: "Ok say you WERE NOT a morning person..."

-Dina: "Yeah, well, I'd still come at 8:00 AM"

-Me: "Ma a7qarni :(...... see you Sat night"